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Precious Pain

‘Everybody’s got a hunger, no matter where they are. Everybody clings to their own fear. Everybody hides some scars.’ The scars done by a Narcissistic Sociopath always involved mental and emotional abuse, some even physical abuse. These leaves scars! This is Precious Pain!

‘Everybody’s got a reason to abandon their plan’. A Sociopath does not work necessarily by ‘plans’, but by supply. Who they can fuck over, suck whatever they need out of, and play off their horrific behaviour as if YOU are the fucked up one…….Precious Pain. How can you think of tomorrow with so much sorrow in hand? Precious Pain! ‘Each road you walk down reminds you of them, your whole town is haunted there’ll never been anything new’……Precious Pain!

You gave the Sociopath your soul so you could survive, they wrapped it in their chains, keeping you safe……But, you were not safe. You were abused, day in and day out. Lies, manipulations, cover-ups, false accusations, constant moving mine-field so that to keep you off track {meaning to keep you under mental & emotional control}. The constant changing of their minds, or the perpetual ‘forgetfulness’, the un-willingness to work with you regarding court order’s, their ability to look you square in the eye’s and lie straight faced and the Sociopath thinking they have you fooled believing their bullshit. This is the chains they placed around your soul…….Precious Pain!

So why do I call this, Precious Pain? As I have said thousands of times, unless a person has been involved with a Narcissistic Sociopath, on any level, nobody can understand the depths of your Precious Pain. The mental and emotional abuse is so deep, so long lasting, so thought consuming, that again, nobody can truly understand. Family and friends may ‘listen to your story’, and offer ‘I’m sorry” or “just move on”, or “why do you still let them affect you?”. Because you cannot described the Precious Pain as it was caused by a person who truly never existed. Yes, the Sociopath was/is a walking/talking/breathing human, but they are soulless. The thin veneer of their mask always falls off. But to the ‘outside’ world {outside of your relationship}, your family & friends have difficulty grasping what you endured. Therefore, this Precious Pain is your’s to carry for the remainder of your life. Sadly.

To spend your waking hours of consuming thoughts about the Sociopath keeps your Precious Pain from being put where it needs to be. In the deepest, darkest part of your mind and heart. A place that you will consciously tell yourself you are not going to visit. I truly do understand your Precious Pain! I also understand, that to be able to put it away, stop wishing harm to the ex. Stop hoping for ‘Karma’ to come around, stop checking any and all social media accounts they have. Stop having indirect contact {mutual friends, their family member’s}, because all you are doing is, keeping the Precious Pain alive and well! If they have sailed onto a new victim, partner, so be it!!!!!!! Yes! It hurts, and it hurts like hell as you wonder “what do they have that I don’t? What are they giving the Sociopath that I didn’t”. The answer is? NOTHING! The new victim partner has everything you did. They just happen to be a new source of supply. Look at the pattern of the ex, how many relationships {that you know about} have ended? The new relationship will eventually end as well, they always do.

Your Precious Pain is your’s and your’s alone. By visiting it every single day is not doing you any good. As I said, you can wish and want all you want about the ex, but those wishes and wants now need to be about you and healing.

Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?    mary manin morrissey



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