Yes YOU, the one I will no longer call by name. The one I will no longer refer to as ‘my’ ex, as I want no personal association to you, with the word ‘my’.
Dear you, that silently destroyed my world. The you who pulled me into your world of darkness, cruelty, placing metal chains around my heart! Stripping me of everything good, kind, beautiful and loving. Dear you for masquerading as a person who really cared, masquerading as a person who actually had a soul! A hollow empty person, who made me feel on top of the world, the most precious person ever in your life, only to be methodically, over time make me question my own self-worth, my sanity and even ask myself ‘what is wrong with me’? Am I Crazy What have I done wrong?
Dear, You, who spoon fed me your POISON under the guise of making me think you were actually human!
Dearest you, who told me nothing but lies from day one, lived lies daily in our relationship, and continue to spew lies about me. Does this make you feel superior? Yes, of course it does! Because you do not know what truth is. There is a name for people like Dear You, PATHOLOGICAL LYING SOCIOPATH. You do not know the damage your lies, abuse, tormenting and cruelty have caused ME and countless people. So while you continue to spew those lies out of your mouth, go about your life as if you have done nothing wrong, placing your mask of Sociopath back on…… just know, I now KNOW YOU!!!
I laugh at the sick way you continue to try and destroy me, or try and suck me back into your darkness with more lies and
sincere word’s of “I’m sorry”. You do not have the first clue of what ‘sorry’ is. I cry over what your words and actions have done. I am paralyzed by the trauma and abuse at the hands and words of Dear You. I struggle each and every day on how to get through the next 24 hours, feeling like I am slowly dying. However……………Dear you, I will make sure you will never see how broken I am, because I know that feeds the sick, disgusting person Dear You are. I will make sure Dear you that one day, this nightmare of HELL you have put me through I will wake up from.
I know, Dear You will try and continue to do whatever you can to stop me from healing. People like you that have to have their Flying Monkeys do your dirty work. but Dear You have no idea the strength inside of me. The strength through your sick twisted mind could not suck out of me. I will play your games, I will silently bear this burden of pain you placed upon me. I will struggle as there is no way to describe to someone what a vile sick and demented you are and were. I may be alone, today in this debilitating pain, confusion, heartache, anger and my thoughts all over the map. Begging God for mercy to get me out of this emotional HELL.
However, Dearest You, as you may have won the battle of destroying me…….. I Promise Dear You….. have not won the war!!!!!!