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Am I Crazy?

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When you are involved with a Sociopath, or apart, how many times do you ask yourself Am I Crazy?

This questioning of yourself is because of the constant mind conditioning done from the Sociopath. Try having a ‘normal’ conversation with them? It turns into a war-with-words, Am I Crazy? The Sociopath tells you all the things wrong with YOU…….Am I Crazy? You are told ‘you will never find someone to put up with you. Your fat, lazy, disgusting, uncaring, abusive, ….Am I Crazy?

Your waking hours are spent over the months and year’s spent with the Sociopath questioning….Am I Crazy?  Everything you poured into the relationship, unconditional love, compassion, begging for normalcy ……Am I Crazy? The thousands of times of forgiveness, only to fall back into their trap of lies, deceit, cheating, and you forgave……Am I Crazy? You decide to go NO CONTACT, and break that for various reasons, mostly because you WANT to believe they have changed…..Am I Crazy? Why can you not let go? Why is the pain so deep, why are their words ringing as truth in your head? Am I Crazy? The answer to those 2 questions are, most of you have never encountered a person who could make you feel on top of the world one day, and then crash you down so hard, so fast that you don’t even know who you are now….Am I Crazy?

You are left emotionally and mentally abandoned, and you cannot understand how that happened, so the question you keep asking is, Am I crazy? You let a person have total control over you, fed into their lies, believed the I’m sorry, you loved this person like no other, yet now you are destroyed….Am I Crazy? The guilt you carry because of the breakdown of the relationship {because YOU were blamed} for any and everything, and you carry those words with you……Am I Crazy? You know the Sociopath was cheating and yet, you let them back in your life……Am I Crazy?

What you need to understand is, you never ‘had’ this person to begin with. From day one the Sociopath only wanted to be worshiped and adored. Taking everything good, kind, successful from you to sustain their grandiose delusional image they have.  Their lies, their words, their behavior was all very calculated~ daily! This ARTICLE explains how the relationship went from fabulous to fucked-up. There are multi layers of pain when dealing with a Sociopath. A common one that is hard to reconcile, accept and throw away is how easily they move on. How easily they became the true Sociopath they are, they absolutely rocked your world into…..Am I Crazy? When they are out of your home, you start to find out more and more about what was happening during the whole time with them….. Am I Crazy? Why did I not see what they were doing? How could I have been so blind to their dual lives? How was I so blind to the silent mental and emotional abuse done, DAILY to me, and why did I not get out sooner? Am I Crazy? 

No! Absolutely, emphatically NO, you are not crazy! You have just encountered a walking/talking/breathing no conscious, person. That is what is so hard to understand as you can think of times when things were ‘normal’…..but were they really? Or were you being silently conditioned so that the relationship to YOU appeared ‘normal’? A Sociopath has zero remorse for what they have done to you, your children, anyone. They truly lack the ability to see that there is something truly wrong with them. They live in a constant state of denial, they are the one’s who are slowly dying and living in hell on earth. Imagine not knowing what it is to feel love, feel remorse, feel compassion. Can you imagine not having those feelings? No…as you do and that is why it is so terribly difficult to stop asking yourself Am I Crazy?

“7 things Sociopaths will do to you. They will…
1. Demean your value;
2. Destroy your image
3. Drive you crazily!
4. Dispose your dreams!
5. Discredit your imagination!
6. Deframe your abilities and
7. Disbelieve your opinions!    israelmore ayivor

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