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Hell and Back……

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You held on a long as you possibly could to the dysfunctional relationship with the Sociopath. You are at day 1 or month 18 of no contact and you find yourself missing them. How can you miss someone who was so awful, treated you so terrible?

You vacillate between anger, missing them, then maybe to lonely, back to anger and so on. You had blind faith that things would work out, and ultimately you know/knew they never would. That is very difficult to accept, especially when they made you feel so good, treated you like you had never been treated, said the most amazing things and with all this you planned for a perfect future. Each and every time you have contact with the Sociopath they take you back to their Hell again.

There are no words to make you accept who & what you were involved with. Yes, I said make you accept. The mind has a way of not wanting to accept reality of situations in an effort to protect us from ultimate pain, sorrow, & sadness. The manipulation done to you was silently at first. Red flags~ignored, underhanded comments~brushed off, times of disappearing~ swallowed their lies, lack of emotions~ maybe they couldn’t relate to a particular situation….all of these and more were done in the systemic breakdown of your core.

Each and every single time you have contact with the Sociopath you are placing yourself back in their hell. Their hell is the inability to: truly love~unconditionally, to accept criticism, bond with their children in a loving nurturing way, provide mental & emotional support for you, have a stable career, posses their own self-esteem, create meaningful friendships……all of these the Sociopath lacks in one form or another. Maybe one has a stable career, but lacks in the emotional & loving connection. Or maybe one is so controlling saying one wrong word sets them into a tailspin of crazy train . Whatever the case is with you, make the steps to get out of hell so you don’t go back again.

“What is next to ecstasy?
Pain.
What is next to pain?
Nothingness.
What is next to nothingness?
Hell.”  
umera ahmed

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11 Responses to “Hell and Back……”

  1. karmabaybee

    Reblogged this on My Blog and commented:
    I am learning so much reading all these bloggers comments and experiences – finding out that so many others are suffering, too and that makes me feel bad because I know how much this hurts. I thought it was an emotional roller coaster I was on. It was a ride, alright. Not a roller coaster but rather a Crazy Train just like mentioned here. A roller coaster is fun. The Crazy Train, not fun at all. I’m not riding it anymore and while I’m still healing, I am getting there. Time heals all wounds. It also wounds all heels. That helps get me through.

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  2. karmabaybee

    I am learning so much reading all these bloggers comments and experiences – finding out that so many others are suffering, too and that makes me feel bad because I know how much this hurts. I thought it was an emotional roller coaster I was on. It was a ride, alright. Not a roller coaster but rather a Crazy Train just like mentioned here. A roller coaster is fun. The Crazy Train, not fun at all. I’m not riding it anymore and while I’m still healing, I am getting there. Time heals all wounds. It also wounds all heels. That helps get me through.

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  3. revgerry

    Hi Tela,
    I think that the sociopath can be very charming – and very exciting, and it is the charm and excitement that we can miss. Ordinary mortals pale in comparison to the colorful facade and engaging fantasy the sociopath presents you with, and you so WANT to believe that this time it’s different. A little like Charlie Brown and the football. Other (men) (women) can be just so..well, boring… that you miss the exciting side you won’t find in your ordinary nerd.

    cyber-hugs to you. Sorry I have been missing for a time – overwork, a bipolar family member needing treatment, vacation and then exhaustion took me away but I feel pretty good right now.

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    • Tela

      Hello my dear friend! You have hit it spot on with the comparisons! I have visited your site often to see if I somehow missed a post – I’m sorry you have had so much to deal with! Hope your feeling better soon! Hugs & love xx

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  4. beautifulpain33

    I stepped on and off the crazy train for way too long now I have stepped off for the last time and know now I can never get back on he can go the rest of his journey with some other sucker …

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